The reason I have a lack of activity is because school even on spring break is ruling my life, also, games seem to control me... perhaps I'm addicted, but that's fine right? any who, I feel like I'm trying to make up for something, an emptiness inside me and as I ponder what that viod is, I remember... a friend of mine is not talking to me, and this person has good reason to... anywho I don't want to get into details.
If one hasn't figured out that this is raw thoughts on paper..er... screen this is what it is, and that is why it is a rant, I almost feel odd writing this, shivers going up and down my spine reviling myself like so. Though, the paradox is that if I dont feel good about it then why do I do it? That will remain a enigma because I also feel good for letting my emotions out. If you have read this far I thank you. That means you take the time to read about how I'm feeling, and I appreciate that very much...
Other things are that I have had a taste of what work feels like, I'm helping my mom with her job by driving her around and in turn get more hours towards my lenience. at the end of this month I should be ready to take that test and be on my way to parts unknown. Finally free, I will... enjoy this time because after high school and school in general free time dwindles to a halt.. or for so I'm told.
As you can tell this is a rant... in a way...
Anywho, I got a cellphone now. my first phone, heh, it feels strange having one. all well.
Sometimes I wish life could stand still if only a moment when I need it but it does not and my rest does not come, but when it does it alwayse feels like it is cut short and or I am lazy... very freaking lazy. I cant tell.

anyway, I thank you for reading all the way though this confusing mess of text.
your friend
Blue