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warning, this is a long rant.

Tue Jan 27, 2009, 6:00 PM
Well, I'll start off with myself.


I feel incredibly lazy, all I'm doing is sitting here and playing games... I have drawings to do, things to read, and what do I do... I play games... is there something wrong with me? or is it ok to hold off work for games? I guess its my way of coping with loneliness. But the strange part is I don't know what to do about my loneliness.. which frustrates me.. and now its the little things that frustrate me even more.. and strange enough, I also want to be left alone... I just dont know whats wrong with me, is it my depression? am I sad? am I bottling something up, I cant read my own mind anymore.. the one thing I do know is that I'm lazy and I get board when I actually get off my ass... so.. what am I to do...

Next comes the contest pic.. turns I'm going to miss it due to weather. I cant go to a printing company, da wont take such a large file size and mom is to lazy to drive me anywhere, let alone teach me how to drive...

and that flash game, yha that went down the toilet, now were doing a video... which I hope we'll at least Finnish...

and my tsa friends are not leaving me alone, along with everyone else that's not in tsa (this is not people on da, just people out side the computer, real life) "you want to come over?" I cant say no because then I get less respect, weather they say it or not, and it makes my other friends upset if they cant come over to my house...

I just want it all to go away... just for a while... so I can get this game/ laziness out of me... some how...

if you read.. TSA is a tech club at our school, no more questions asked.
and if you read thank you for reading all the way though.

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:iconanuojat:
You really should talk out loud with someone about these things... it DOES hurt your head to keep it up for too long.

Also: Exersise to get your mind moving.

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Hm. I'm sorry if I bothered you lately.

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:iconjargon1993:
Yea i get that same feeling most of the time.... Just try to hang in there buddy :hug:

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:iconscurge-lonely-dragon:
I know what it's like to procrastinate and/or distract oneself from other things by playing games, but as for distracting, i just let myself come to terms with it, wether it hurts me or not, so that i no longer feel the need to distract myself from it or it goes to the back of my mind...usually leaves something empty within me, though...As for procrastination..well, with drawing and such, unless you're feeling SOME passion/enjoyment in it, it's better to do something you will enjoy, as for stuff one has to do, well grit your teeth, get throught it, that leaves you then not feeling guilty or worrying about it, and leaves you free to do whatever, that's how i make myself do revision and such :hug:
I think deep down you want not to be left alone, but till you realise that for yourself you want to isolate yourself so you can calm down, unwind as much as possible and work it all out (i might be wrong - even if i wasn't autistic, i'd still suck at 'reading people' -.-;...) Unfortunately, this world - the human system - dosn't allow time to unwind, etc. >_<; Unless...if you can grit your teeth and get things your "meant" to do out the way, then put drawing's etc. aside and manage not to play games, you could just go somewhere yb yourself for a few hours, with nothing to worry about or stress over (except maybe your current possition, but you'll be fixing that by being somewhere with your own thoughts only for a few hours) If you have somewhere that's secluded you can go, that's best - with me i go up the mountain, or, if for some reason that's impractical, i sometimes instead go to the church in Caerphilly, not coz i'm at all religious, in fact i dislike much what the building stands for and what humans associate it with and with it, but it's a calming, empty place, and i think of the building itself, as any old building, silent, old,...Anyways, i hope i've helped, i can't offer any more advice or wisdom ,and from what i know i'm not to good at such things anyway *hugs*

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:iconrednightblitz:
i think your playing games to distract your self from something you must do but don't want to do.
there could be 3 reasons for this. first you have been doing this thing a lot but not geting the result.that happens with me i study and study and still get just passing marks( solution for this is take a break from the thing,eg. spend time with family or close frinds.) second you planed to do it but now you have changed your mind about it or you've lost intrest and thirdly think you might fear that you are incapable of doing it and do not want to face your fears.i am incapable of talking to most people as i do not have comunicational skills (due to dislexya,i hope i spelt it right) so i don't talk to poeple( no even my parnts)and so i do not develop and improve my comunicational skills .the solution for the 2 and 3 reason is just do or like you friend says it grit your teeth and do it.
i realy want to appologise for reading *Scurge-lonely-Dragon comment i should not have,it was inethecal of me.i did it as it's length got me curious.i would like you to inform *Scurge-lonely-Dragon of my regretfull behavier and inform *Scurge-lonely-Dragon of my deep and sincer appology
...... it could be mood swings.nay *Scurge-lonely-Dragon is probably right.
:hug: keep :D

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:iconbravo22:
I think your feelings right now have been quite bottled up (as I found oot the hard way) and your lazyness is defo your depression because I had that same problem yesterday which for me is a reminder that I still have it.

:hug::hug: We'll make it mate!! :hug::hug:

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:iconbluedragon012:
so is it ok to continue to be lazy?

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:iconbluedragon012:
thank you, and its alright, it makes me feel better that you agree with him.

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:iconbluedragon012:
well.. what I'm confused about is.. do I really need to do some of the things I think I need ot do..

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